urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandik Poems of Amanda Kleschinsky mandik 2004-05-04T20:39:02Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandik:2920 2004-05-04T20:39:02Z 2004-05-04T20:39:02Z These are now my better days,<br />All because of you.<br /><br />I have changed in so many ways,<br />All because of you.<br /><br />You Make me the happiest I can be,<br />With the little things you do.<br /><br />You let me see the better part of me<br />With the little things you do urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandik:2722 2004-04-04T21:44:33Z 2004-04-04T21:44:33Z This story is about life<br />In which, no one knows the end<br /><br />This story will come out bad<br />But includes what made you glad<br /><br />This story will tell lies<br />But what to watch out for<br /><br />This story is the only guide<br />that will help you survive. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandik:2492 2004-03-28T15:49:40Z 2004-03-28T15:49:40Z I think I made a mistake<br />is it worth a life to take?<br />I make a promise, soon to break<br />a good relationship is something I cant make<br /><br />Sorry for what I have done<br />At first we had so much fun <br />Then things grew apart<br />And every time you’d break my heart<br /><br />Wondering what I have to show<br />who knew I would end so low<br />Think is all I do<br />I just want to be back with you<br /><br />That choice I can not make<br />I wish I could but it would be fake<br />I wish I knew how much you cared<br />before I went and did what was dared. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandik:2130 2004-03-07T00:48:42Z 2004-03-07T00:48:42Z Do you know how it feels to be me?<br />You probably have no clue<br />Looking through the eyes to see what i see<br />Then imagining my body to do what i do<br /><br />Do you know why you fell?<br />You probably don't even know<br />Everyone has a different story to tell<br />But no one can pin-point why they failed to grow<br /><br />... yah thats all i got so far... <br /><br />then this one:<br /><br />Darkened images<br />I can no longer see<br />Silence overcomes me<br />I can no longer move<br /><br />Locked in this room<br />I can no longer breathe<br />I still manage to love you<br />Even though I no longer live<br /><br /><br />yah im getting depressed again.. what a bad day... :( urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandik:1998 2004-02-29T05:06:47Z 2004-02-29T05:06:47Z merrr i wrote these about a week ago when i was sadish<br /><br />No one feels my sorrow<br />Feels like there will be no tomorrow<br />There’s so much you don’t know<br />You are but impatience, and just let me go<br /><br />I want to feel that feeling inside<br />Get a fresh slate, to wipe away the days I lied<br />of happiness, where there really wasn’t<br />I want that day to come but it doesn’t<br /><br />Always want what you can’t grasp<br />Just leaves with a sudden gasp<br /><br />and thats all I have to that one<br /><br />then I started a small one<br /><br />So people will notice you, you cry<br />But everyone knows you lied<br />You only want to be put in the spot<br />So you can show everyone what you bought<br /><br /><br />no clue ! hahahah urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandik:1785 2004-02-19T04:46:10Z 2004-02-19T04:53:58Z I was told I was a mistake<br />This life should not be here<br />I am only put in the way <br />But I will prove not<br /><br />With what said, I should break<br />This life is paper ready to tear,<br />and I should just be pushed away<br />But I will prove not<br /><br />I was told life could be better<br />If this life did not exist<br />I am only here to pest<br />But I will prove not<br /><br />Happiness could result from that letter<br />Then this life could be a full of bliss<br />and I should just lie among the rest<br />Bull I will prove not<br /><br />And this one to justin :<br /><br />When I’m with you, I feel like I can float,<br />Never ending sailing on this love boat,<br />Whenever you are near, I draw a smile<br />Flashing moments of us for that while.<br /><br />Call after call, I feel even closer to you<br />Seems like I know everything you do<br />You will always be on my mind<br />Every thought reminds me of how kind<br /><br />Promise me you will never leave<br />Make decisions on what you believe<br />I will let you know, its true<br />I have such strong feelings for you <br /><br />Remembering how sweet you are to me<br />Speaking to you makes me feel so happy<br />I am falling for you more each day<br />Hoping you will be here to stay.<br /><br /><br />then when i was on the phone with justin i found more poems i saved:<br /><br />Finally back to being me<br />Happy as can be<br />no longer sad <br />no reason to be mad<br /><br />everything finally going good<br />always new it could.<br />things feel apart<br />now, my feelings come from my heart<br /><br />Only one thing I regret<br />remember the day that we met<br />now, slowly are losing a good friend<br />even though we have others, I hope it wont end<br /><br />then :<br /><br />Since I was young, there was no one<br />my feelings stay inside, and everything was a lie<br />growing up, not knowing what was done<br />with all the pain inside, no one here to stand by<br /><br />I need someone, someone who truely cares<br />someone who will always be there<br />someone who wipes away my tears<br />That someone will never appear<br /><br />Longing to be free<br />Feeling locked away<br />I cant truly see<br />the happiness of the day<br /><br />I felt you near<br />thought you were the one<br />you slipped away from here<br />so you could feel happy with what was done<br /><br />... dont know why i didnt post those ones too... oh well .. hope u like urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandik:1484 2004-02-18T04:36:18Z 2004-02-18T04:36:18Z Wanting<br /><br />Sat here crying.<br />Life is so lonely.<br />All I can hear is the yelling,<br />I just want it to stop.<br /><br />The world keeps spinning.<br />Life is out of reach.<br />My head keeps banging,<br />I just want it to stop.<br /><br />Everything keeps falling.<br />Life is so pointless.<br />All I keep doing is failing,<br />I just want it to stop.<br /><br />No one to catch me dropping.<br />Life is so unhappy and unpleasant.<br />My insides keep tearing,<br />I just want it to stop. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandik:1250 2004-02-16T20:06:53Z 2004-02-16T20:06:53Z You would think after i moved on<br />I could stop thinking of you.<br />Not true, wishing you weren't gone. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandik:971 2004-01-16T18:13:07Z 2004-01-16T18:13:07Z I have been put through the hurt... the pain.. <br />but im going to make it through <br />and show y'all i have a lot to gain<br />may not have everything, love what i can do<br />take nothing for granted<br />who knows when its going ot be gone<br />not too sure if what i did<br />was good or bad, but im sure alone urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandik:597 2004-01-05T22:10:20Z 2004-01-05T22:10:20Z this is one of them:<br /><br />is this how it is gonna be?<br />always you without me<br />i should put u in the past<br />but we had so many memories that still and always last<br /><br />even though it was only short<br />i still feel the hurt<br />of the day you said no more<br />i cried and feel on the floor<br /><br />as you see new and so do I <br />it just make me sad cuz all I have left is to cry<br />so many said no and don't go that low <br />i wish i could but mi heart says hold on and go<br /><br />i tried but when i see you, all i can do it smile<br />and for that while<br />everything flashed before mi eyes<br />and ill always love youz<br /><br />i wish I could change the past <br />and made this last<br />and neither of our feelings would had been hurt<br />if i only made it work<br /><br />I don't know if u see<br />how much u meant 2 me<br />and I don't know if u even care or we should b just friends<br />if so this is where our story ends<br /><br />but I still and always will love you with all my heart<br />and it will never part<br />when you look back I hope you see what I see<br />a love that was just waiting to blown for all to wannabe<br /><br />another one is ( this was to my ex when i was going out w. him cause he always wrote poems to me so i wrote him one): <br /><br />Sweet memories, will never let go<br />This girl he wants him to know <br />She will never forget<br />The day they first met<br /><br />Some say love at first sight <br />Others say there is always one true love<br />But yes with all this she just might <br />Believe all of this tales, and find her true dove<br /><br />Funny times, will always stay in mind <br />She never knew she would find some one so kind <br />The one that stood aside from the rest<br />Cuz she knew he was the best<br /><br />these were ones from my profile that i got bored and wrote:<br /><br />if all my dreams came true...<br /> i would be with you..<br />i guess we will never know....<br /> cause im too afraid to let my feelings show...<br /><br />::..i'll be wishing upon that starO:-)..::<br />..::thatz where i'll find you but hope not too far::..<br />::.. in heavens reach is where i'll be..::<br />..::forever and always, you and me::..<br /><br />*~dont no were i would b....~*<br /> ~*without the help you gave to me....*~<br />*~i mite b lost without you caring...~*<br /> ~* you told me best with your sharing...*~<br /><br />Amanda* urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:mandik:488 2004-01-05T03:33:19Z 2004-01-05T03:39:37Z Well this is my newest poem i just wrote... im gonna warn you.. these all suck.. but its the only way i can express what i have to say... <br /><br />No liking what i have become<br />Nothing can change the past<br />Jjust waiting for that someone to come<br />Til then all i can do it hold on and make it last<br /><br /><br />I wrote these this morning at two:<br /><br />Dad<br /><br />Can’t count the days<br />you left me here<br />with nothing to turn to<br />I think of the ways<br />but seems everything comes to a tear<br />all I can do is wait, and see what to do<br /><br />you made a fake call<br />did you want to see me fall?<br />You, my father, doesnt want to see<br />what I have came to be<br /><br />instead I turn to friends<br />cause there is no one else to trust<br />and they are there to tie up my lose ends<br /><br />cant you see, I lost a mother<br />and I take the blame<br />lesson learnt- always help another<br />no need to be rude to anyone-its lame<br /><br />I have too much to lose<br />Now its hard to open up to just anyone<br />Life can be a cruise<br />but now this boat is done<br /><br />What is it to be in love?<br /><br />What is it to be in love?<br />When you feel like your floating above?<br />Or when all your problems seem to go away?<br />Or maybe when you can’t wait to see them everyday?<br /><br />All of these questions I ask<br />but who does this happen to?<br />I make this a new task<br />Ready, it is to fall in love with you<br /><br />Me<br /><br />People look at me <br />and see a person happy as can be<br />but no one truly knows me<br />I wish I could tell so they could see<br />What I have been through<br />Not complaining, I accomplished a lot<br />Not what I chose to<br />A person who needs to be taught<br />the lesson of life<br />Don’t cut bread with just any knife<br />Only the best<br />and leave behind the rest<br /><br />Trust<br /><br />I am not like all of you<br />I don’t play by the rule<br />If you don’t know the true me<br />then forget trust, which is the key<br /><br />Can only trust a few,<br />who I can run to when im blue<br />could it be you?<br />Watch out, I might fall and what will you be left to do?<br /><br /><br />Then i did this one a couple days ago:<br /><br />They say don’t judge a person <br />until you look them in the eyes<br /><br />Been hurt so many times<br />Don’t know how to show<br />Committed no crimes<br />but still people don’t know<br /><br />Prejudging one<br />Shouldnt been done<br />until looked into the eyes<br />and look past the lies<br /><br />No one knows me <br />trust is the key<br />I can’t tell you<br />with all this hurt inside, I don’t know what to do<br /><br />tired of being hurt<br />kicked and thrown in the dirt<br />cant you see<br />this is me, and all I can be<br /><br />under all of this,<br />is a person that can shine<br />with your simple kiss<br />i put the hurt behind<br /><br />I have no where to show<br />the feelings down deep<br />they hide as if buried in snow<br />and just want to jump out on the first leap<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />Well i hope you like them! <br /><br />Amanda*