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May 4th, 2004

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April 4th, 2004

05:44 pm - neww poemmm This story is about life In which, no one knows the end This story will come out bad But includes what made you glad This story will tell lies But what to watch out for This story is the only guide that will help you survive. Current Mood: sad

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March 28th, 2004

10:49 am I think I made a mistake is it worth a life to take? I make a promise, soon to break a good relationship is something I cant make Sorry for what I have done At first we had so much fun Then things grew apart And every time you’d break my heart Wondering what I have to show who knew I would end so low Think is all I do I just want to be back with you That choice I can not make I wish I could but it would be fake I wish I knew how much you cared before I went and did what was dared. Current Mood: crappy

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March 6th, 2004

07:48 pm Do you know how it feels to be me? You probably have no clue Looking through the eyes to see what i see Then imagining my body to do what i do Do you know why you fell? You probably don't even know Everyone has a different story to tell But no one can pin-point why they failed to grow ... yah thats all i got so far... then this one: Darkened images I can no longer see Silence overcomes me I can no longer move Locked in this room I can no longer breathe I still manage to love you Even though I no longer live yah im getting depressed again.. what a bad day... :( Current Mood: depressed

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February 29th, 2004

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February 18th, 2004

11:45 pm I was told I was a mistake This life should not be here I am only put in the way But I will prove not With what said, I should break This life is paper ready to tear, and I should just be pushed away But I will prove not I was told life could be better If this life did not exist I am only here to pest But I will prove not Happiness could result from that letter Then this life could be a full of bliss and I should just lie among the rest Bull I will prove not And this one to justin : When I’m with you, I feel like I can float, Never ending sailing on this love boat, Whenever you are near, I draw a smile Flashing moments of us for that while. Call after call, I feel even closer to you Seems like I know everything you do You will always be on my mind Every thought reminds me of how kind Promise me you will never leave Make decisions on what you believe I will let you know, its true I have such strong feelings for you Remembering how sweet you are to me Speaking to you makes me feel so happy I am falling for you more each day Hoping you will be here to stay. then when i was on the phone with justin i found more poems i saved: Finally back to being me Happy as can be no longer sad no reason to be mad everything finally going good always new it could. things feel apart now, my feelings come from my heart Only one thing I regret remember the day that we met now, slowly are losing a good friend even though we have others, I hope it wont end then : Since I was young, there was no one my feelings stay inside, and everything was a lie growing up, not knowing what was done with all the pain inside, no one here to stand by I need someone, someone who truely cares someone who will always be there someone who wipes away my tears That someone will never appear Longing to be free Feeling locked away I cant truly see the happiness of the day I felt you near thought you were the one you slipped away from here so you could feel happy with what was done ... dont know why i didnt post those ones too... oh well .. hope u like Current Mood: tired

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February 17th, 2004

11:36 pm Wanting Sat here crying. Life is so lonely. All I can hear is the yelling, I just want it to stop. The world keeps spinning. Life is out of reach. My head keeps banging, I just want it to stop. Everything keeps falling. Life is so pointless. All I keep doing is failing, I just want it to stop. No one to catch me dropping. Life is so unhappy and unpleasant. My insides keep tearing, I just want it to stop. Current Mood: depressed

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February 16th, 2004

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January 16th, 2004

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January 5th, 2004

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January 4th, 2004

10:30 pm - My poems Well this is my newest poem i just wrote... im gonna warn you.. these all suck.. but its the only way i can express what i have to say... No liking what i have become Nothing can change the past Jjust waiting for that someone to come Til then all i can do it hold on and make it last I wrote these this morning at two: Dad Can’t count the days you left me here with nothing to turn to I think of the ways but seems everything comes to a tear all I can do is wait, and see what to do you made a fake call did you want to see me fall? You, my father, doesnt want to see what I have came to be instead I turn to friends cause there is no one else to trust and they are there to tie up my lose ends cant you see, I lost a mother and I take the blame lesson learnt- always help another no need to be rude to anyone-its lame I have too much to lose Now its hard to open up to just anyone Life can be a cruise but now this boat is done What is it to be in love? What is it to be in love? When you feel like your floating above? Or when all your problems seem to go away? Or maybe when you can’t wait to see them everyday? All of these questions I ask but who does this happen to? I make this a new task Ready, it is to fall in love with you Me People look at me and see a person happy as can be but no one truly knows me I wish I could tell so they could see What I have been through Not complaining, I accomplished a lot Not what I chose to A person who needs to be taught the lesson of life Don’t cut bread with just any knife Only the best and leave behind the rest Trust I am not like all of you I don’t play by the rule If you don’t know the true me then forget trust, which is the key Can only trust a few, who I can run to when im blue could it be you? Watch out, I might fall and what will you be left to do? Then i did this one a couple days ago: They say don’t judge a person until you look them in the eyes Been hurt so many times Don’t know how to show Committed no crimes but still people don’t know Prejudging one Shouldnt been done until looked into the eyes and look past the lies No one knows me trust is the key I can’t tell you with all this hurt inside, I don’t know what to do tired of being hurt kicked and thrown in the dirt cant you see this is me, and all I can be under all of this, is a person that can shine with your simple kiss i put the hurt behind I have no where to show the feelings down deep they hide as if buried in snow and just want to jump out on the first leap Well i hope you like them! Amanda* Current Mood: blah

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